Wah......in a blink of eyes....we are almost at the end of 2009 already....feels like 2009 just started yesterday or so..
Since I'm a lil free now....as well just write something unspecial and special that happen to me so far throughtout the pass 10 months.
January 2009
Back to college study to get my Diploma cert
Febuary 2009
Heartbroken by someone just a day before CNY and back to work on my 3rd day of CNY
March 2009
Finally get to meet up with Shirley & Michelle from Sibu & Kch respectively and detour around KL with them
April 2009
Nothing much happen in this month except work and study
May 2009
1st time went to MOS and had a phobia which causes me to abstain from going in there again if I could.
June 2009
Sat for my 1st External Paper for LCCI cert
July 2009
taken up the courage to go pierce another ear hole ;P
August 2009
Melaka trip with family for 3 days 2 nights
Went up to Genting on 31 Augusts and watches fireworks with "someone" ever for the 1st time
Celebrated Boon's Birthday at LOP and Clubbing later on
Went to PD with my gf and Tan myself darker to more like a malay girl when I'm already like one =.=
September 2009
Celebrated Chun Mun and Gilbert's Birtday
October 2009
Sat for another 3 External LCCI paper
Went to Bukit Tinggi the detoured to Genting Highland with Wil dear, Boon, Chun Mun and Aaron dear.
Celebrated Mummy dearest Birthday, Aaron dear birthday and KK birthday
hahahah....Basically thats wat I've been doing for now....for nov & dec updates.....maybe later lar...dun know wat my event that be lining up for it yet.
So for time being that's for now....will update again real soon :)
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3.11.09
2.10.09
After a long long time......
It has been some time since I last update my blog....
Can't blame me on this...been busy over the last few weeks..
preparing for an exam which just over last 2 days, but still that doesn't stop me to enjoy and taking a break from my studies itself.
I got my result for my Jun exam....thanks God I passes with Credit....
now praying hard that I can get good result for all my coming soon exam and the paper I have just taken few days back...I dun wish to waste my time and resit any paper. As I be finishing my course around April next year. Just pray hard together with me yea....
Well....nothing much had been happening.....I have been seldom seen taking photo nowadays....But will post up some Birthday photo soon.... :)
Can't blame me on this...been busy over the last few weeks..
preparing for an exam which just over last 2 days, but still that doesn't stop me to enjoy and taking a break from my studies itself.
I got my result for my Jun exam....thanks God I passes with Credit....
now praying hard that I can get good result for all my coming soon exam and the paper I have just taken few days back...I dun wish to waste my time and resit any paper. As I be finishing my course around April next year. Just pray hard together with me yea....
Well....nothing much had been happening.....I have been seldom seen taking photo nowadays....But will post up some Birthday photo soon.... :)
20.5.09
Tears oh Tears...
Was doing my revision just now, with my favourite music playing on my computer player.
Don't know why...suddenly tears just flowed down my cheeks. Right there and then, I stopped whatever I was doing, and think what is wrong with me....
I really had no idea....I was so happy for the whole weekend and till just now, the tears just flow...
I really don't know what causes me to drop my tears....hopefully not for someone not worth, as I had promise myself that I would never drop anymore tears for people who do not appreaciate me the way I'm...
Or maybe I stressing myself too much??? Afraid I can't do well in my exam??? I really dun know....just confuse...maybe after this studies....I wish to take a long holiday and go somewhere far to relax and enjoy myself with my any of my dearest friend...
Don't know why...suddenly tears just flowed down my cheeks. Right there and then, I stopped whatever I was doing, and think what is wrong with me....
I really had no idea....I was so happy for the whole weekend and till just now, the tears just flow...
I really don't know what causes me to drop my tears....hopefully not for someone not worth, as I had promise myself that I would never drop anymore tears for people who do not appreaciate me the way I'm...
Or maybe I stressing myself too much??? Afraid I can't do well in my exam??? I really dun know....just confuse...maybe after this studies....I wish to take a long holiday and go somewhere far to relax and enjoy myself with my any of my dearest friend...
8.5.09
I dun need a faker like you!
Sorry folks, I know some of you be wondering why I hasn't been updating my blog lately. Is not that I do not want to update, but is cos i was caught up with some problems, work n all....
My work n studies basically are alright.....not that busy since i still got time to always hangout...., but just dun know why....maybe is I myself being too stupid can never able to judge a person properly. I hate the times where I hate to find out what with that person who are close to me is hiding from me, I hate it when the time I needed you, you ended up hiding yourself away from me, even rude is when you can't even keep the promise to be a good fren just as everyone thought you would, and for deleting people away from facebook, since you want to do so, I be asking my friend to delete you too. I know now you have that someone you won't bother much as your eyes see nothing else and your mind think nothing else cos love has blinded you from everything including friendship!
But anyhow.....I still have lots of people around me, which included my family, my friends such as Shirley, Amiey. Now they know what kind of person you are. Thanks for the bloody fake time you wasted on me, and no thanks to the time I wasted on you! You are just hell another lier to me....
And I wan thanks to a good friend who always willing to listen to my complaints *Wei Hao*, thanks for the time you spent to listen to my complaints, knowing my problems, giving me advice and all.... :) A big huggies and thanks to YOU!!!!
My work n studies basically are alright.....not that busy since i still got time to always hangout...., but just dun know why....maybe is I myself being too stupid can never able to judge a person properly. I hate the times where I hate to find out what with that person who are close to me is hiding from me, I hate it when the time I needed you, you ended up hiding yourself away from me, even rude is when you can't even keep the promise to be a good fren just as everyone thought you would, and for deleting people away from facebook, since you want to do so, I be asking my friend to delete you too. I know now you have that someone you won't bother much as your eyes see nothing else and your mind think nothing else cos love has blinded you from everything including friendship!
But anyhow.....I still have lots of people around me, which included my family, my friends such as Shirley, Amiey. Now they know what kind of person you are. Thanks for the bloody fake time you wasted on me, and no thanks to the time I wasted on you! You are just hell another lier to me....
And I wan thanks to a good friend who always willing to listen to my complaints *Wei Hao*, thanks for the time you spent to listen to my complaints, knowing my problems, giving me advice and all.... :) A big huggies and thanks to YOU!!!!
6.3.09
The stories about @ gal n@me Sh@ron
Well....I guess most of you have been curious and for some of you who does not know me well actually will keep asking me this question. Are you local? Are you chinese or malay or mix? Are you this are you that etc....
So I guess is just fair for me to explaine it here and so next time you meet me you don't need to and question me lor...and also to let you know a lil about my complicated background of growing up life.
Basically, I would consider myself as chinese no matter how dark my skin tone ar. Well, actuallly not that dark also la my skin, just in between a malay and indian skin tone. So, sometimes people would thought I'm a mix chinese. Hahaha....okok...I grew up basically in a chinese family since a baby, let skip the baby growing up time. Partically at 10, during an so called abusement from my mum, she was so angry and she just blabbed out that I was not her child and I was picked up from a dump or something. Being already 10, and knowing such things, I began to feel the hatred for her growing in me, because I can't accept the fact of the truth...I keep saying she was lying to me and she said is true. So, fine for that, on that night, I began to have the thought of running
away from home and even really planned for it...ironic right?? But to tell you, by morning come,
I have no idea where I should go at all. So forget bout it and I stayed back and suffer on what I had been suffering.
At the age of 12, I was abused quite badly and also got beaten up quite badly, and this come to the attention of my cousin sister who had left her baby girl under the care of my mother and she immediately reported it to our youngest uncle who actually love me very much. This causes much anger to him and something which we will never thought one would do agaisnt immediate family members would do....and so to cut the stories short at 12, I was send off to orphanage home and after was there for about a months, a good samaritans came and wanted to take me in as their own daughter even thought they themself have a daughter around my age. Thought both of us were never close until the time we left highschool, due to different timing and activities we had and different road journey to head too, slowly, time pull us together and we eventually learned to treasure each other more than anything. I love you Esther, eventhough sometimes you are irritating but whenever you are not around now, I really misses those time where we used to argue, where you used to irritate me just for the fun of it....I misses those time very much....
Yea,....so now, we had grow up, more responsible and independent to face the world outside on our own. No more moments of daddy and mummy to hold your hand and walk but time to learn and be independant on ourself. To achieve what we want in life, to have a good future, at times I do wonder would I be successful and be what I want in times to come? Would I be able to be who I want to be? Anyhow, I never stop walking ahead saying to myself I can do it no matter what happen. With patient, encouragement, support and love, I will never let anyone down.
The once me used to be a person who always dwell back on my past, but not until when I met with a few good friends who never stop to keep encouraging me...Thanks! I guess I just had to stop her now and continue with part 2 later on , see ya!
So I guess is just fair for me to explaine it here and so next time you meet me you don't need to and question me lor...and also to let you know a lil about my complicated background of growing up life.
Basically, I would consider myself as chinese no matter how dark my skin tone ar. Well, actuallly not that dark also la my skin, just in between a malay and indian skin tone. So, sometimes people would thought I'm a mix chinese. Hahaha....okok...I grew up basically in a chinese family since a baby, let skip the baby growing up time. Partically at 10, during an so called abusement from my mum, she was so angry and she just blabbed out that I was not her child and I was picked up from a dump or something. Being already 10, and knowing such things, I began to feel the hatred for her growing in me, because I can't accept the fact of the truth...I keep saying she was lying to me and she said is true. So, fine for that, on that night, I began to have the thought of running
away from home and even really planned for it...ironic right?? But to tell you, by morning come,
I have no idea where I should go at all. So forget bout it and I stayed back and suffer on what I had been suffering.
At the age of 12, I was abused quite badly and also got beaten up quite badly, and this come to the attention of my cousin sister who had left her baby girl under the care of my mother and she immediately reported it to our youngest uncle who actually love me very much. This causes much anger to him and something which we will never thought one would do agaisnt immediate family members would do....and so to cut the stories short at 12, I was send off to orphanage home and after was there for about a months, a good samaritans came and wanted to take me in as their own daughter even thought they themself have a daughter around my age. Thought both of us were never close until the time we left highschool, due to different timing and activities we had and different road journey to head too, slowly, time pull us together and we eventually learned to treasure each other more than anything. I love you Esther, eventhough sometimes you are irritating but whenever you are not around now, I really misses those time where we used to argue, where you used to irritate me just for the fun of it....I misses those time very much....
Yea,....so now, we had grow up, more responsible and independent to face the world outside on our own. No more moments of daddy and mummy to hold your hand and walk but time to learn and be independant on ourself. To achieve what we want in life, to have a good future, at times I do wonder would I be successful and be what I want in times to come? Would I be able to be who I want to be? Anyhow, I never stop walking ahead saying to myself I can do it no matter what happen. With patient, encouragement, support and love, I will never let anyone down.
The once me used to be a person who always dwell back on my past, but not until when I met with a few good friends who never stop to keep encouraging me...Thanks! I guess I just had to stop her now and continue with part 2 later on , see ya!
5.2.09
The Insecurity in my Life...
My mind was so tired and I always woke up with a headache and always not in the mood for anything. Even been talking less to Snow babe and Valen. Sorry guys! Dun worry too much bout me k, I'm alright.
Maybe is just I'm too tired, too much & too many is going on in my mind....and lots of question been popping up in my mind, but one of the most common question are that people would tend to ask me when they know about my background stories is that "do I plan to find out/want to know who are my own biological parents if I have the chance?" to be honest....I do of course want to know, but then again...I'm not sure.
I've only came to know that I'm an adopted Child from my previous family when I was just at the age of 10. At that time, good or bad...I started to have the most hateful feeling one could ever have towards someone. I hate them not because I got to know I'm adopted, hate them because they insulted my parents at that time.
That's the reason why as the older I get....I began to ponder and wonder, would I ever get to meet them for once in my life? Or....would I see them in a place I never wish to see..? I'm really confuse, the hurts and hatred I have towards someone has grow to make me feel insecure to just believe in anyone and everyone, and is also hard for me to believe in myself sometimes.
Is not that I've not move on in life, I did..slowly walking out of certain things, but the hurts inside is just too hard to forget. Once a scar is left inside, it will always stay there....
I know alot of people been asking me to let it go...but is not easy as that kind of incident spoiled my whole childhood. I did pray hard for breakthrough...but still....I feel is the same.
28.1.09
Gong Xi Fa Cai !!!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai to everyone! Well, indeed this year CNY does sounds very very quiet in KL, and I myself too dun seems to have much feel for anything. Well....angpao also decrease liao...sigh..but still, I have a great time spending it together with my family and relatives. And of cos, is somehow a old tradition that we must wear something red on the 1st day =.='''
So dun ask me why la k....I just follow only...
So dun ask me why la k....I just follow only...
Me with my New Hairstyle and New Clothes
Me & my cousin Soo Teng
26.1.09
Leaving and Letting Go
Dear Valen,
If you, still ever happened to drop in here...this is a lil something for you.
I know there's nothing I do or say can hold you back. Even is just for the short 2 weeks....I've never felt happy for so long time already. Really thank you for the love and care you've showed me. I know you were uncertain and unsure of this relationship...I don't blame you to have ever start, instead I blame myself to have fall for you.
Yes, it hurts alot to know you make the decision to leave, cos of the promises you made to me earlier.... I was just unable to to take it on my own. But still, don't worry bout me, I'm alright, you've told me before life have to be moved on, right? I do prayed you'll be alright, we can't be partners, but there's still something called friendship. I losses you as once as a bf, but I don't want to lose you as a friend.
So, for whatever promises you have told me, I take it as a memories with me, to know that I once have you in part of my life. Thanks once again...
If you, still ever happened to drop in here...this is a lil something for you.
I know there's nothing I do or say can hold you back. Even is just for the short 2 weeks....I've never felt happy for so long time already. Really thank you for the love and care you've showed me. I know you were uncertain and unsure of this relationship...I don't blame you to have ever start, instead I blame myself to have fall for you.
Yes, it hurts alot to know you make the decision to leave, cos of the promises you made to me earlier.... I was just unable to to take it on my own. But still, don't worry bout me, I'm alright, you've told me before life have to be moved on, right? I do prayed you'll be alright, we can't be partners, but there's still something called friendship. I losses you as once as a bf, but I don't want to lose you as a friend.
So, for whatever promises you have told me, I take it as a memories with me, to know that I once have you in part of my life. Thanks once again...
23.1.09
Blurness...
I am working in Berjaya Times Square, having to walk to the nearest LRT, Hang Tuah Station will only takes me around 10-15 mins. Buy yesterday as I was on my way out to walk, it started drizzling and I thought I'd better take the monorail to go over which cost me a freaking RM 1.20 just for that short distance.
So fine, already tired from work...once awhile ok la...so as I am using Touch n Go, so means I doesn't need to purchase the ticket. I stand at the machine trying to Touch n Go....it doesn't work...I tried a few times and nothing happen...I was confused..how come the person infront of me can go through and I can't?? Is not that I don't have any credits or anything, hmm...so i look at my card...trying to figure out what happen..
As I looked....I realize that is my ATM card, lol...how can I be so blur??? I was also wondering how can I be holding it and not my Touch n Go...don't ask me how I can end up like that k..cos I don't know either :P
So fine, already tired from work...once awhile ok la...so as I am using Touch n Go, so means I doesn't need to purchase the ticket. I stand at the machine trying to Touch n Go....it doesn't work...I tried a few times and nothing happen...I was confused..how come the person infront of me can go through and I can't?? Is not that I don't have any credits or anything, hmm...so i look at my card...trying to figure out what happen..
As I looked....I realize that is my ATM card, lol...how can I be so blur??? I was also wondering how can I be holding it and not my Touch n Go...don't ask me how I can end up like that k..cos I don't know either :P
22.1.09
Because of You
Because of You
I have learned once again to put my trust in you
Because of You
I have learned not to think about the past
Because of You
You have given me the hopes to move on with life
Because of You
I have learned once again to love
Because of you
I have learned to put back on the smiles I once used to have
Because of You
things I see around me are turning into even more colourful
Because of you
I will love you always and nothing will ever change it
Love you dear
I have learned once again to put my trust in you
Because of You
I have learned not to think about the past
Because of You
You have given me the hopes to move on with life
Because of You
I have learned once again to love
Because of you
I have learned to put back on the smiles I once used to have
Because of You
things I see around me are turning into even more colourful
Because of you
I will love you always and nothing will ever change it
Love you dear
My New Hair Style for 2009
Finally got myself a haircut and Rebond, so long never been sitting down at the salons for hours, and my butt hurts,....luckily I got someone to complain too..hahaha....but the result this time didn't turn out as bad as last time. Quite satisfied with it, even my dear say nice too... :)
17.1.09
The PROMISES
On 17 Jan 2009
as the clock strike 12a.m
WE made a promises to each other not to think about the past
but to move on together and start anew
I do hope the promises you make and those things you said you will mean it
And prayed you would not be like another persion I used to know
And from now on, I would remember this date in my heart and the promises you made to me.
as the clock strike 12a.m
WE made a promises to each other not to think about the past
but to move on together and start anew
I do hope the promises you make and those things you said you will mean it
And prayed you would not be like another persion I used to know
And from now on, I would remember this date in my heart and the promises you made to me.
13.1.09
Finally....
Finally I have learned to let go of you after a year
Finally I realize myself are staying away far from you so that I would not get hurt again
Finally I told myself that I was too naive not to believe what other has warn me about
Finally I realize that I was too stupid to believe you in what you said
Finally.....I make that desicion once again to stay far far out of sight from you.
Regardless on how much hurts that I have in myself, Im thankful for those friends that are around me who keep encouraging and support me to be strong. Without them, I don't think I'm able to go through it all by myself. Thanks guys and gals!
Finally I realize myself are staying away far from you so that I would not get hurt again
Finally I told myself that I was too naive not to believe what other has warn me about
Finally I realize that I was too stupid to believe you in what you said
Finally.....I make that desicion once again to stay far far out of sight from you.
Regardless on how much hurts that I have in myself, Im thankful for those friends that are around me who keep encouraging and support me to be strong. Without them, I don't think I'm able to go through it all by myself. Thanks guys and gals!
5.1.09
Darn Sick....
Wat a bad start off in the beginning of New Year....
I was down with a high Fever last night, went to see doctor and he told me my throat is red....
DARN.....is only 5th day and I'm sick....!
Well....then better be sick now then sick on Chinese New Year right???
Haiz.....have to feed myself on medicine again....
and darn,....the doc look a kind to me yesterday....Look like a ham sap lou.....
Dun know is it cos I too sick or he memang like that....ish....
I was down with a high Fever last night, went to see doctor and he told me my throat is red....
DARN.....is only 5th day and I'm sick....!
Well....then better be sick now then sick on Chinese New Year right???
Haiz.....have to feed myself on medicine again....
and darn,....the doc look a kind to me yesterday....Look like a ham sap lou.....
Dun know is it cos I too sick or he memang like that....ish....
1.1.09
My 1st Christmas & New Year Countdown
Well, since I haven't posted on my Christmas countdown post due to the error while uploading the photo....I decided to just merge it together with my New Year Countdown post and pic will be up later on.
So, I'm gonna talk about my Christmas countdown 1st. My initial plan was suppose to go Genting as planned together with my dear colleague from work, but during late morning she told me that her car is giving her problem and she was not able to drive it up all ways. So we thought we might have to spend Christmas down in KL instead...in the end she asked me to give her sometime as she checked with her sister to see if her husband can drive us up together since they are also planning to go up for countdown. Well, at last we received a happy news saying that we will be going up (Thanks to Fennie brother in-law) and will be making our way there at 9pm.
To cut the story short...we reaches Genting at around 10pm (plus looking for a parking which took us 1/2 hour) and making our way to the Starbuck as we still had plenty of time before it was 12am. After ordering and chit chatting sitting outside the Starbuck, finally at 11.30pm we make our way to Genting Highlasd Hotel side there and joined in with the rest of the people for the countdown. We waited and waited.....camwhore and camwhore and observing the different kind of people around us until 12.10am....there is NO FIREWORKS!!!! So.....disappointed as we are....when we were making our way in....darn...people were blocking the doorway even though they see people are trying to make their way in and people behind keep pushing just for the fun of pushing...
As when we had make our way in the next place we headed to was Safari Club inside Genting. Safari is one of the most happening club in Genting, and of course the entrance fees for the night is only RM35 for Hotel guests and RM45 for Walk-In guest and it comes with a bottle of Calsberg beer. It was my 1st time entering a club....yea You Heard Me Right! 1st time in my whole life and on Christmas I finally step foot inside a club! Well....I don't feel quite good at 1st, with the loud music banging, and people pushing around for going in out. But the beer got me cool down quite soon and with Fennie help, I finally too...dance my way together with the beats of the music. I do say...is quite a experience to me, but also something new...as it helped me to release stress and I dances some unhappiness I had in my heart away. :)
Well...for New Year eve le wor.....I took a 2nd 1/2 day off from work and headed my way to 1 Utama to meet up with Fennie and Hooi Choo for countdown....We thought we would jus countdown at 1 Utama, but later after that one of our dear Ex-colleague Ai Lee called and say she will be in The Curve for countdown and then we will be partying away at Laundry Bar.
Laundry Bar was another experience for me. It was memang fully packed with people espeacially after countdown. We went in there and ordered a bottle of Black Label, it somehow tasted quite good to me as it was added with Coke. I guess that this were the only time I ever drank so much, err... I think I drank like 5-6 cups???? and with the last 2 cups which I drank straight down because I was like suddenly feeling not too happy. My friend realise it and try to stop me from drinking, but I still continue drinking....mind telling you I do and still a little awake and know what is happening around. The party ended at 3am....knowing I was drunk and my friend sended me home whereby I just took a hot shower and fall straight to my bed and slept right up to 12pm and with a sharp pain in my head....
So I guess this was how I spended this year Christmas and New Year countdown....
and I want to say thannks to my friend who know actually why I drank so much to get myself drunk, and also to apologies to you girls for the trouble causes. I'm happy to have you gals around in times like this, a shoulder to cry on and comforting words to calm me down. I do feel better now.
So HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 and wishes everyone all the best in everything!
So, I'm gonna talk about my Christmas countdown 1st. My initial plan was suppose to go Genting as planned together with my dear colleague from work, but during late morning she told me that her car is giving her problem and she was not able to drive it up all ways. So we thought we might have to spend Christmas down in KL instead...in the end she asked me to give her sometime as she checked with her sister to see if her husband can drive us up together since they are also planning to go up for countdown. Well, at last we received a happy news saying that we will be going up (Thanks to Fennie brother in-law) and will be making our way there at 9pm.
To cut the story short...we reaches Genting at around 10pm (plus looking for a parking which took us 1/2 hour) and making our way to the Starbuck as we still had plenty of time before it was 12am. After ordering and chit chatting sitting outside the Starbuck, finally at 11.30pm we make our way to Genting Highlasd Hotel side there and joined in with the rest of the people for the countdown. We waited and waited.....camwhore and camwhore and observing the different kind of people around us until 12.10am....there is NO FIREWORKS!!!! So.....disappointed as we are....when we were making our way in....darn...people were blocking the doorway even though they see people are trying to make their way in and people behind keep pushing just for the fun of pushing...
As when we had make our way in the next place we headed to was Safari Club inside Genting. Safari is one of the most happening club in Genting, and of course the entrance fees for the night is only RM35 for Hotel guests and RM45 for Walk-In guest and it comes with a bottle of Calsberg beer. It was my 1st time entering a club....yea You Heard Me Right! 1st time in my whole life and on Christmas I finally step foot inside a club! Well....I don't feel quite good at 1st, with the loud music banging, and people pushing around for going in out. But the beer got me cool down quite soon and with Fennie help, I finally too...dance my way together with the beats of the music. I do say...is quite a experience to me, but also something new...as it helped me to release stress and I dances some unhappiness I had in my heart away. :)
Well...for New Year eve le wor.....I took a 2nd 1/2 day off from work and headed my way to 1 Utama to meet up with Fennie and Hooi Choo for countdown....We thought we would jus countdown at 1 Utama, but later after that one of our dear Ex-colleague Ai Lee called and say she will be in The Curve for countdown and then we will be partying away at Laundry Bar.
Laundry Bar was another experience for me. It was memang fully packed with people espeacially after countdown. We went in there and ordered a bottle of Black Label, it somehow tasted quite good to me as it was added with Coke. I guess that this were the only time I ever drank so much, err... I think I drank like 5-6 cups???? and with the last 2 cups which I drank straight down because I was like suddenly feeling not too happy. My friend realise it and try to stop me from drinking, but I still continue drinking....mind telling you I do and still a little awake and know what is happening around. The party ended at 3am....knowing I was drunk and my friend sended me home whereby I just took a hot shower and fall straight to my bed and slept right up to 12pm and with a sharp pain in my head....
So I guess this was how I spended this year Christmas and New Year countdown....
and I want to say thannks to my friend who know actually why I drank so much to get myself drunk, and also to apologies to you girls for the trouble causes. I'm happy to have you gals around in times like this, a shoulder to cry on and comforting words to calm me down. I do feel better now.
So HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 and wishes everyone all the best in everything!
23.12.08
Flashback Memories
Tears were streaming down to my cheeks,
As I had this "Flashback Memories"
I keep wondering....
Why things doens't always turn out the way I wanted it to be???
Though some of them are good things that happen
But still I had much more sadder things that happen too...
On the FAMILY end...
I am blessed with a Supportive family members..
who, my parents never failed to keep us in prayer.
For every bad times we are going through....
they can see it clearly, and know that we are on the edge of struggling to get through with life...
They will let us fall....so that we can once again climb up and learn our own mistake that we made
But....does we ever seen what our own parents are going through???
They tried hard to hide their problem away...hoping we do worried about them
But...is hard
On the RELATIONSHIP end...
I'm on the edge to almost giving up with relationship....
Having been making choices of breaking off with someone is just too hard for me...
When I say I LOVE YOU, I really do mean it...
I do not and never played in any of my relationship...
But....was I ever just too blind to see or was I just too naive and being fooled like an idiot???
I will always and will tell that someone
"Don't ever come and tell me you love me if you don't ever even mean it".
"Don't ever promise things you can't even do when you say you would...
This is the only main 2 reason....that will always make me wonder when I was in a relationship
On the WORKING end...
Everything on my working side actually are not on much problem...
I get along with people fairly well...
But I do hate pretender....
I learned a good things from work is ...
never gossip about anything within ur own colleague or should I say...
never ever join in a group who will gossip about others....
or else you might get your own ass into trouble soon....
On STUDY end...
I will be back to study for 1 YEARS & 3 MONTHS....
but add on the External Examination I have to take after the studies....probably 2 years...
Wish me luck on this....this might be the last thing that I ever wanna do ....
I know working and studying is not easy....but I can't bear to loose my job
Just prayed that I have enough strenght to go throught this....
As I had this "Flashback Memories"
I keep wondering....
Why things doens't always turn out the way I wanted it to be???
Though some of them are good things that happen
But still I had much more sadder things that happen too...
On the FAMILY end...
I am blessed with a Supportive family members..
who, my parents never failed to keep us in prayer.
For every bad times we are going through....
they can see it clearly, and know that we are on the edge of struggling to get through with life...
They will let us fall....so that we can once again climb up and learn our own mistake that we made
But....does we ever seen what our own parents are going through???
They tried hard to hide their problem away...hoping we do worried about them
But...is hard
On the RELATIONSHIP end...
I'm on the edge to almost giving up with relationship....
Having been making choices of breaking off with someone is just too hard for me...
When I say I LOVE YOU, I really do mean it...
I do not and never played in any of my relationship...
But....was I ever just too blind to see or was I just too naive and being fooled like an idiot???
I will always and will tell that someone
"Don't ever come and tell me you love me if you don't ever even mean it".
"Don't ever promise things you can't even do when you say you would...
This is the only main 2 reason....that will always make me wonder when I was in a relationship
On the WORKING end...
Everything on my working side actually are not on much problem...
I get along with people fairly well...
But I do hate pretender....
I learned a good things from work is ...
never gossip about anything within ur own colleague or should I say...
never ever join in a group who will gossip about others....
or else you might get your own ass into trouble soon....
On STUDY end...
I will be back to study for 1 YEARS & 3 MONTHS....
but add on the External Examination I have to take after the studies....probably 2 years...
Wish me luck on this....this might be the last thing that I ever wanna do ....
I know working and studying is not easy....but I can't bear to loose my job
Just prayed that I have enough strenght to go throught this....
20.12.08
傻瓜
其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁 暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说
其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱 撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭
傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留
傻瓜 我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤
傻瓜 我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜
18.11.08
Abigail & Richard Wedding Dinner
So yea...was attending my lovely God Sister wedding on last saturday at Janbo Restaurant Puchong together as a whole family and being as a God daughter, we are placed at the same table with Uncle Len's (Abby father) families members. Which we feel honoured somehow...asking my God Mother how come we are being so special...she said we are part of the family...that's the reason why...So my dad joked with us saying that if next time I get married, she will have to sit with our family too.
Hahaha....ok, enought crapping, well, so yea it was such a joy to see the happy couple finally getting together and pledge their life to care for each other, this is something which you really gotto think carefully in making such decision, cos marriage is a life time things, no one want a unhappy marriage in the end. As the bride walked in, I began to wonder to myself, well....one of this day, I want to be that beautiful bride that walk down the aisle and being handed over to the groom by my dad...haha...there I go..dreamming again...
Anyway, I just pray that everyone of you will get your wonderful someone one of this day, just be patient and your day will come.
15.11.08
10.11.08
I have not been able to get a good rest ever since I came back from PD like 2 weeks ago....and worse still everytime I only slept for few hours.!!! Being sleep and awake for a few times during the night nearly gonna kills me...Though I still able to manage the sleepyness that dawn on me.
Like last night, although I went to bed earlier like 12a.m, but by 1a.m I was awaken by some noise or dreams that keeps me up the whole night before I manage to get myself back to sleep at 4a.m....this is really tiring...but no one understand and they thought I have damn good sleep at night.
But since lately....something had keep troubling my heart, but I dun know what it is. It just making me so weak and so worried about that something or someone....I felt really troubled by this, I have never seems to feel this troubled before...maybe the walk at the park the other day just didn't help me in anyways. It will take me time to do so again....I really hope and wish this would come to an end so I can move on....
Sharon Lim....give yourself a chance and set yourself free from this..you have hold back way too much for yourself to bear it alone......leave the past behind and just move on with your life....it'll be much better for you .....
Like last night, although I went to bed earlier like 12a.m, but by 1a.m I was awaken by some noise or dreams that keeps me up the whole night before I manage to get myself back to sleep at 4a.m....this is really tiring...but no one understand and they thought I have damn good sleep at night.
But since lately....something had keep troubling my heart, but I dun know what it is. It just making me so weak and so worried about that something or someone....I felt really troubled by this, I have never seems to feel this troubled before...maybe the walk at the park the other day just didn't help me in anyways. It will take me time to do so again....I really hope and wish this would come to an end so I can move on....
Sharon Lim....give yourself a chance and set yourself free from this..you have hold back way too much for yourself to bear it alone......leave the past behind and just move on with your life....it'll be much better for you .....
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